South Bloomfield United Methodist Church
Pastor's Blog
Twilight Sleep

Have you ever sat in a chair and found yourself in a state of "twilight sleep"?  I don't know any better words for that time when you are kind of asleep, but you're aware of what's going on around you.  This past Thursday, I found that my life was in that weird state of semi-consciousness and I didn't recognize the malady, or how long, I had been in that condition.


This past Monday, I was gathering my "things" and my thoughts in preparation for the day.  I happened to look on a shelf in my office and found a book, simply entitled "prayer".  I picked up the book and opened it to about the center, which was a section marked "Love" .  The two pages looking back at me were prayers about--- you guessed it, love. 

This is what the first page had to say to me:   "Love-----what a beautiful word! Yet many people are so cynical about it, dear Jesus.  I guess that's because there is so much artificial affection in this world, but I'd like for people to see true love---- your love--in my life.   Please give me the ability to love as you do."

The second page read: "I say I love You, Father, although I'm not sure it goes as deep as it should.  I want it to, though.  I want to be so in love with You that it shows in every aspect of my life.  Help me to develop the intimacy with You that I should have."

It was the second prayer which pierced my heart.  My days (I have no idea how many) had been filled with planning, organizing, sermon preparation, visitation, filing reports, ordering, meetings, and Stuff, but my relationship with God was at an arms length.  Oh, I thought about God each day, but spent little time "with God" in prayer and meditation.  I was doing "good things" for God, but rarely offered up the recognition He deserves for each labor in which I was a part.  I maneuvered each day through a world which is going to heck in the proverbial Longaberger hand basket and I have done little to help turn that trend around.

This Sunday, I hope to share, in more detail, my feelings of 'Christian twilight sleep' and how we can wake up to fully love the Lord. "I want to be so in love with You that it shows in every aspect of my life.  Help me to develop the intimacy with You that I should have."  These words should pierce your heart too.  

God Bless you my beloved

Pastor  Floyd

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